Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Love is a strange feeling. Love is an emotion you feel, yet it is also a decision you make of allowing yourself to trust and bind yourself to someone. I sometimes don't want to love. I have been so hurt by so many people, entrusting my heart to them - only to be let down. I try and stand back for that distant run. Is that not crazy? But you see, it hurts to love sometimes. I know, believe me. I get scared to death of loving someone and then falling, trying to pick myself up. I get so disgusted with myself for allowing it to happen. I know in relationships you need love. You need love to go on in life. "Jesus" is the only real picture of true love. What a sacrifice He gave to us to show us unconditional love. I can hardly wait to see Him one day. It too is sometimes hard to fathome all that Jesus gives and gave me. I wallow in my own "Self" pity sometimes. It is a "Self" problem. I think of only "Self". I need to be more devoted to reading my Bible...more than I do. I just have that desire to be more than I am, more than probably I can be. I am not satisified until "I do"...instead of letting God be my guide. I think I have to "do"...and not let "Him" do. I guess what I am trying to say is...Love is a hard thing to do, but when you do Love...don't play games, Love like there is no tomorrow, and if you really want to know "REAL LOVE"...give your heart to Jesus and He will show you that "REAL LOVE".