Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Nobody Understands.....Nobody

Nobody Understands...Nobody. I don't expect them to either. I could sleep for days....and days. I am sick. I know this is why. I hate this feeling, but there is no getting over it. It's literally killing me. I'm sad. I'm so, so sad. I can't get out of this state either. I don't think I want to long as this continues. If death is bad, I don't think I'll survive it either. I can't talk to anyone much because they just don't know what I feel. I don't expect them to. I don't want anyone analyzing me on this. If you've been there, then you know. Don't try to analyze this. You can't. I have one true friend who is there for me.....who don't ask me why I feel this way....who just listens to me rant and cry. That friend loves me. But who wants to listen to this all the time? This is why I don't tell this friend when I feel this way....I don't want them to hear it all the time!!! Who Would? I don't think my own family knows either. I don't bombard them with the details of my feelings. If I do, some are quick to judge me....not love me....and they don't listen. I don't need a judge....I don't need my family to tell me how to feel....I need them to understand and love me. How about a little love instead of knowing what to tell me to do? You don't can't're not there!!!! I am!!!! It's hard to be in the middle....try it a in the middle and see how you feel. You might not be so quick to judge my feelings!!! I could rant on and on.....Just love me.....don't try to start something with me. I cry.......who cares?!?


Corry said...

I don't know your situation, but you mentioned 'being in the middle'. I don't know if it is possible, but maybe you ought to take yourself out of the middle?

Praying for you, Karen.

God's Grace.

Jesika Harmon said...

I wish I could give you a hug Karen. And maybe I don't know how you feel, but Christ does. He suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane and on the cross not just for our sins, but for everything that happens to us that isn't our fault, for our sicknesses, for our pains and trials...he felt all of it so that he would know how to succor us when we need him. Pray to feel that peace and it will come. I have needed it and experienced it. It can enable you to do things you didn't think you could do...and give you comfort that no one else can give. You're an amazing beautiful person Karen!

Anonymous said...

That drawing is stunning. Is that aboriginal? You are very gifted.

Anonymous said...

Original. Sorry-faulty autocorrect.