"Self"

2 Timothy 3
1This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.
2For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
3Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
4Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;


If there is one thing I can't stand...it is "Self". Here I am writing about a subject I know all about. At one time, it was all about "ME". I was a lover of self. When you are a lover of self, all the things in 2 Timothy Chapter 3; verses 1-4 will apply to you. I have heard people say "well all I really want is...", and it is hard to break away from that. That is self talking. I was a coveter. I was very boastful. I was proud. I blashemed. I was disrespectful to my parents. I was unthankful. I was definitely unholy. I am all about those verses. I had such hate in my being. I hated people. I only let those chosen few inside with me. I was a lover of pleasure. I loved it more than God. I wanted what I wanted. If I wanted something...I made sure I got it. I was not brought up this way. I got this way over time...due to sinning. I was happy when you were not happy. I can say only due to God's love and God's grace that I am saved, and not taking pleasure in the hurts of others. I love more than I could ever love before. I find myself loving people that I thought I could never love. That is God...that is his way. He wants us to be a worker for him. I know I am not perfect by any means, but I am a child of God. I desire to please him. He is my Lord.