Often I wonder if depression is a sin. Is it? I had thought about asking my pastor about that subject before. I don't want to sin. I don't truly. And if depression is a sin....I'm sinning. It says in Psalms 9:10 "And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee." So, if I put my trust in him then I should not be depressed? I do put trust in him, but I can't help it if my heart aches. So what do I do to stop the depression I have? I pray that God will take away these feelings that I have. I know only I can do something about my attitude with his help, but God can do all. Psalm 18:2 states -"The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. " If this is so, and it is, then why do I have the feelings I have? I am 100% sure that the Lord is my rock....my fortress....my deliverer......MY GOD.......my strength.....then what is holding me back in 100% trusting in him to deliver me from my dark depression? Is it my fear? What do I have to fear if God is going to bring me out of the darkest of deep despair? I just don't understand! I just don't understand why! And lastly, I just don't understand why he can't turn it around now! Why Lord?? Why?? I am not supposed to ask him why? Why not? I could sleep for days. I am that sleepy at this very moment....and I know it is depression that I am fightning. I want to be "free" from fear! I don't want to fear any longer. I want to trust that God will deliver my child out of bondage....from her own wickedness. I want to never fear that God isn't big enough to help her out of this situation. I plead with you God, I beg, please....please.... Help her....Help me. I don't want to cry out any longer. I want this to end...just end!!! Keep her safe Lord. Keep her out of the danger that lurks out there to take her out of your will. She don't know she needs you. She needs to be in your will. She needs to be in your house and in your word. I ask you dear Lord...again I come to you in prayer. Amen.