I have always liked that title "Undercover Angel". As a teen growing up, I liked the song and I used it as my CB handle. Believe it or not, my parents let me talk to whomever I wanted to. Back in those days it didn't seem to matter who I talked to...and I talked to whoever would talk. I guess it was to get me outa their hair. And of course, it worked. I liked being called angel. And lots of people would talk to me about their problems. I would listen, and yes, I cared. I remember one guy in particular who had cancer and was dying. I would chat with him time and time again. I was worried about this guy. He was older than me, but not by too much. I would spend countless hours listening to him reach out to someone for that last word. I felt like he was reaching out to express his fear of dying. And he probably was. He didn't want to die. He wanted life. I don't even know if he was saved or not. He didn't share that part with me. And just because I spent all that time being his friend, I didn't want that credit. I don't like to take credit for things. I don't like being the one who stands out above the rest. I love to serve God and serve for him...not for me. I want so much to help with so many things, but I don't think I am worthy. I don't think I would be chosen...and if I was, what if I made a mistake or messed up. That is one reason I did not sing in the choir. I did sing one time, and I was forever in fear that I would screw up, sing off key and someone would notice. I was scared, so I gave it up. I was faithful to come to practice in the beginning, but I quit for fear. So, I try to give, or give of myself...but I am still afraid that I will mess up. I sometimes give without anyone knowing because I don't want to "ring my bell". I don't want someone to think..."oh she is just doing that to be noticed". I don't need that or want that. So, I just give anonymously because it is the only wayI can do it. So for the title...Undercover Angel....I want to remain an undercover angel!